One day they’re there for you, another day they aren’t. One day they’re real towards you, then they become fake. For so long, they’ve been a great friend, then out of nowhere, it’s like you didn’t mean anything to them. Those awkward moments when you walk through the halls and you both glance at each other, remembering when you were friends, but you both have your own now and act like you never met. It’s scary how fast things change.
We’re back to where we started. Not strangers, but back to the beginning. My wall is up, and I’m giving you a chance to break it down. I know we can get back to the way we used to be, but I won’t expect anything from you. It’ll just cause disappointment. So for now, whatever happens just happens.
People always say honesty is the best policy. The key to every relationship is trust. If you can’t be honest with them, they can’t trust you, and you’ll never have a successful relationship. But honestly, being honest about certain things is hard. How do you tell someone they aren’t giving you any room to breathe without changing the relationship drastically? It’s stuff like this that you want to be honest about, but can’t. It’s stuff like that that will come up during a fight and they’ll tell you ‘why didn’t you just tell me earlier? we could’ve fixed it then.’ And you’ll sit there and think yeah, they’re right. But honestly, how can you tell someone that without him or her getting sad and change completely? Honesty is key, but it’s also key to know how to use it.
Fuck your lies. Fuck your games. Fuck hoping that one day you'll change. Fuck broken promises. Fuck regrets. Fuck the memories I can't seem to forget. Fuck wanting you. Fuck needing you. Fuck all the shit you put me through. Fuck feeling worthless. Fuck trying to be tough. Fuck the feeling of never being good enough. Fuck the bullshit. Fuck the tears. Fuck these two wasted years. Fuck the other girls. Oh, excuse me, I meant whores. And fuck wishing you'd show up at my door. Fuck being treated like shit. Fuck not being happy. Fuck missing the way things used to be. That's it, I'm through. So guess what? Fuck you.